R.I.P.

Once upon a life I knew where my heart dwelt...

A past memory of how my heart felt..

Many times over my emotions were your target..

You left a gaping hole passing through it was nothing but regret..

It doesn't come from me loving you..

It comes from me allowing myself to..

I always thought you, & I were until death did us part..

It wasn't for years that I realized you had no heart...

You were a monster in sheep's clothing just to charm your way in..

We were an ending that should've never became fake friends..

It's hurtful but true..

You were never meant for me, & I never for you..

I need to close the doors I left open cause their causing me nothing but pain..

I have to let go if I want to remain half sane..

A death to a life I thought we had together..

It was just my plans you wanted no parts of ever.

Death of our love, did us part..

I'll be okay, once I mend my broken heart..

For now it'll have to be what it will be..

For now my love shall just R.I.P. 

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HEALING

Healing. 

I once took a chance of giving my heart.. 

The 1st time was just infatuation,

So that quickly fell apart..

The next time I surrendered my emotions..

That too was an illusion filled with covered up lies and lack of devotion..

The last time I gave my heart, body, & soul..

How it ended left me shattered, with a damaged heart left cold..

The love I had to share with those that have trashed it, should've been for self..

surrendering love seems extremely bad for your health

Will I ever love again? Well that's unknown..

I have trust issues. So much so, that for now I'd just rather be on my own.. 

Will I feel like this forever? That I don't know..

All my movements from this day forward will be done on the slow..

I'm in no hurry to add one more break to my still fragile heart..

I'm in no rush to build something new that will only fall apart. 

I'm taking the time I need to heal, & get back to me

I am letting go, & letting God decide what's next to be

Healing is the hardest part..

Especially when your mending a broken heart..

Wish I could unlove someone, that would make my life so easy..

I can't.. The love won't just go away that easily.. 

I can say I'm dealing..

It's going to be a long process healing.. 

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REALITY SHOWS... WHAT CAN I SAY?

I WATCH THESE REALITY SHOWS WITH A LITTLE CAUTION!!

ITS AMAZING TO ME HOW PEOPLE WILL SELL THEIR SOULS FOR A QUICK DOLLAR, BUT THEN COMPLAIN ABOUT A LACK OF PRIVACY...

REALLY PEOPLE?!?!?!?!

I GUESS EVERYTHING HAS A PRICE TAG WEATHER WE'RE WILLING TO ADMIT IT OR NOT.

I'VE FOUND THAT THE KEY SELLING POINTS FOR A POPULAR SHOW ARE AS FOLLOWS:

1) HUMILIATION

2) DRAMA, DRAMA, & MORE DRAMA

3) SEX, & LIES...

I'VE BEEN WATCHING THESE PEOPLE WITH CHILDREN, AIR OUT THEIR DIRTY LAUNDRY FOR THE WORLD TO TUNE IN & WATCH.

THE  SAD PART OF IT ALL IS THAT THEY CLAIM ITS TO KEEP FOOD ON THE TABLE, & TAKE CARE OF THEIR KIDS....

I DOUBT THAT SERIOUSLY!!

FOR 1, THESE CHILDREN AREN'T HOME SCHOOLED, AND THEY ALL HAVE PEERS.

IF YOU WANT TO HAVE YOUR PRIVACY, DON'T SIGN A CONTRACT THAT ALLOWS YOU TO BE IN THE LIGHT YOU CLAIM YOU WANT NO PARTS OF!!

I GET THAT SOME USE THAT LAME EXCUSE, WHILE OTHERS WANT THAT ATTENTION, MONEY, AND REPUTATION.

IF YOU ACT IGNORANT ON TV, AND YOU'VE SIGNED THESE CONTRACTS, (WHICH I THINK IS JUST LIKE SELLING YOUR SOUL TO THE DEVIL) BE PREPARED TO WIPE YOUR CHILD'S TEARS.

IF YOU EVER WERE A CHILD THEN YOU KNOW THAT SOMETIMES THEY CAN BE CRUEL.

HERE'S THE RUNDOWN OF THE SHOWS THAT MAKE ME SAD TO KNOW THAT THESE PEOPLE OF COLOR REPRESENT US AFRICAN AMERICAN MEN & WOMEN IN A BAD LIGHT:

LOVE & HIP HOP ATLANTA

LOVE & HIP HOP NEW YORK

THE GOSSIP GIRLS

THESE SHOWS HAVE GOOD & BAD POINTS, BUT THE KIDS SUFFER IN THE LONG RUN WEATHER THEIR SHOWN, TALKED ABOUT, OR NOT.

I ADMIT ITS A GUILTY PLEASURE FOR ME TO KNOW THAT SOMEONE ELSE'S LIFE IS MORE SCREWED UP THEN OTHERS.

IT'S MOST DEFINITELY A CHAT PIECE!

POINT BEING THAT IF I'M CHATTING IT UP WITH MY PEERS, & LAUGHING ABOUT IT, WHAT MAKES THEM THINK THEIR CHILDREN, FAMILY, & FRIENDS AREN'T GETTING THE SHIT END OF IT?

IS THAT PAYCHECK REALLY WORTH IT?

EVER HEARD OF RE-RUNS?

THE SOUP?

COMEDIANS?

ETC.?

#SAD!!

N' MY OPINION ANYWAYS... 

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SO SCARED OF WHAT'S NEXT..

TERRORIST ATTACKS ARE MAKING ME MORE THEN NERVOUS!

THERE HAVE BEEN 77 REPORTED SUSPICIOUS ACTIVITIES WITHIN THE LAST 24 HOURS.

THE RECENT EVENT THAT TOOK PLACE IN BOSTON THIS PAST WEEKEND CLAIMED INNOCENT LIVES, ONE OF WHICH WAS A 8 YEAR OLD CHILD.

NO ONE IS SAFE.

IT SADDENS ME THAT THERE IS SUCH LACK OF REGARD FOR HUMAN LIFE, THAT THESE TERRORIST WANT TO BLAME THEIR IGNORANT BEHAVIOR ON GOD.

SHAME ON THEM!!

WE WERE ALL CREATED IN HIS IMAGE, AND BECAUSE WE'RE ALL DIFFERENT THAT ALSO MEANS THAT GOD IS MANY THINGS, A TERRORIST ISN'T ONE OF THOSE THINGS.

GOD IS NOT A TERRORIST, SO WHEN THEY BLOW BUILDINGS UP, AND KILL PEOPLE IN THE NAME OF RELIGION FURTHER EXHIBITS THEIR TRUE IGNORANCE.

I PRAY THAT THINGS GET BETTER FAST!

I WILL CONTINUE TO PRAY FOR PEACE.

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TAXES ARE A REAL SETBACK!

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I USE TO GET A KICK OUT OF SHOPPING ONLINE, BECAUSE I GET TO SAVE MONEY, HAVE ITEMS SENT DIRECTLY TO MY HOUSE, & THERE WAS NO TAX FOR CT.

ALL THAT WILL CHANGE THANKS TO OUR CURRENT GOVERNOR..

HE REALLY SUCKS!

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AIN'T KARMA A BITCH!!??!!

IT'S SO FUNNY!!

I JUST LOVE WHEN KARMA STRIKES, & I GET TO SIT BACK & WATCH..

EXAMPLE:

A SO CALLED "FRIEND" DECIDED TO 

1) ARGUE WITH ME!

2)TRASH ME!

3) & INSULT ME TO BOOT!

THIS SO CALLED "FRIEND", LOST MORE PEOPLE IN THEIR CIRCLE BY BURNING BRIDGES...

JUST BY DOING THE SAME THING OVER, & OVER AGAIN.

WHEN YOU DO THE SAME THING AGAIN, & AGAIN EXPECTING A DIFFERENT OUT COME, IS MERELY THE DEFINITION OF INSANITY...

GUESS WHOM THEY DECIDED TO CALL TO GRIPE ABOUT IT ALL?

WHEN THE STORY YOU TELL HAS THE SAME ENDING EXCEPT THE PEOPLE IN THE STORY HAVE CHANGED, IT'S TIME TO TAKE A HARD LOOK INTO THE MIRROR SO YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHOM THE PROBLEM TRULY IS...

THIS IS A NO BRAINER..

SEE, ENERGY IS NEITHER LOST NOR DESTROYED... 

IT'S ONLY TRANSFERRED...

I DON'T RE-JOYCE IN OTHER PEOPLE'S SUFFERING.

 I JUST LIKE KNOWING THAT THERE'S ORDER IN A WORLD WITHOUT ANY ORDER.

LONG & SHORT OF IT ALL?

DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WOULD HAVE THEM DO UNTO YOU!

YOU GET EXACTLY WHAT YOU GIVE!!

 

REALITY SHOWS THAT BECOME REAL, REALLY FAST!

"BUCKWILD"

This was one of my favorite shows to watch.

"My guilty pleasure."

Its sad how for the brief 15 minutes of fame, lives are forever lost to "Reality Shows."

A few years ago, some writers of TV shows on various stations had gone on strike, leaving shows to eventually fail & get cancelled.

While these writers were on strike, stations became desperate for something that would keep the viewers watching, and ratings up.

We've evolved into "reality shows."

A huge downfall for us all.

No longer could we trust the stations to keep young viewers safe from garbage television.

Not that we fully trusted them at all.

We have "The Real World", "Survivor", "The Biggest Loser", "The Bachelor", Etc.

Shain Gandee was only 21 when he, his uncle, and an unidentified friend were found dead in his Bronco from Carbon Monoxide.

It leaves me to wonder.  

Did this young man, his uncle, and friend want to keep the cameras on them doing what Shain loved to do, and was made famous for doing on the show which was "Muddin'"?

If that was indeed the case, SHAME ON YOU MTV & CAMERA CREW!

Someone should've notice there was a problem if they were in fact filming.

Only them & God knows what really happened.

Having the opportunity to become a "Reality TV Star", really isn't an opportunity at all, except to fail.

The other Co-Star, Salwa has also given up her life for faster cash.

I'm assuming that the cast isn't being paid well since Salwa felt she had to become a drug dealer.

When the dreams of being on TV become a reality for young kids, it soon after becomes a living nightmare they can't wake up from.

They get the false sense of security, then allow themselves to believe that they are above authority and can't be touched...

That is until they actually really get touched.

Its all sad.

Our youths today don't have the same values we older wiser adults had while growing up.

What is viewed by these naive, sheltered young people is what they see as being acceptable.

Blame shouldn't be held by one, but by all.

If you as a parent allow your children to watch things you yourself find offensive, then you too are to blame.

Networks that only care about the ratings, and the money they see from the shows that are deemed "A Hit" hold some responsibility  as well.

Instead of pointing fingers, change what is making fingers point.

I'm just saying.. 

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THIS GENERATION

KIDS

IT'S AMAZING TO ME HOW THROUGHOUT THE GENERATIONS THE BASIC STANDARDS HAVE CHANGED WHEN IT COMES TO RAISING CHILDREN.

I REMEMBER WHEN PARENTS RULED WITH AN "IRON FIST".

MEANING THAT THERE WERE NO EXCUSES, JUST PROBLEMS THAT GOT SOLVED.

FOR INSTANCE:

MY MOM WAS RAISED IN THE 40'S, AND HER MOTHER WAS RAISED IN THE TEEN'S.

I'M A 70'S BABY..

FROM THIS, I MEAN TO SAY THAT THE STORIES I WAS TOLD GROWING UP WERE THAT  IF YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG, YOU WERE HANDLED ACCORDINGLY.

MY GRANDMOTHER STRUGGLED FOR AN EDUCATION, MY MOTHER FOUGHT FOR HER EDUCATION, I APPRECIATED MINE.

WE'RE FINISHED.

MY KIDS ARE 9YRS APART, AND THE OLDEST LOVED SCHOOL, AND GOT HIS EDUCATION. 

MY YOUNGEST USE TO LOVE SCHOOL WHEN HE WAS A BIT YOUNGER, BUT NOW THAT HE HAS HIT PUBERTY HE'S BEEN TESTING US ALL.

NO MATTER HOE MUCH YOU TRY TO EXPLAIN, KIDS JUST DON'T GET IT.

I TELL HIM THAT HIS EDUCATION IS HIS SHIELD, WEAPON, AND SALVATION.

NO ONE CAN GET HIS EDUCATION FOR HIM, BUT HIM.

WITHOUT AN EDUCATION, YOUR DEFENSELESS! 

PERIOD!

I'VE NOTICED GRADES SLIPPING, AND BEHAVIOR CHANGING.

I DON'T BELIEVE IN LAYING MY HAND ON HIM, BECAUSE I FEEL I MIGHT SERIOUSLY HURT HIM.

I DO THREATEN HIM.

I WILL TELL HIM I'D LAY HANDS IF HIS BEHAVIOR DOESN'T CHANGE, BUT I DON'T FOLLOW THROUGH WITH THE TREATS.

I THREATEN TO TAKE AWAY ALL HIS PRIZE POSSESSIONS, LIKE THE CELL PHONE I SAID HE COULDN'T HAVE THAT HIS FATHER BOUGHT ANYWAYS.

THE XBOX, THE CABLE, ETC., HAVE RECENTLY BEEN REMOVED FROM USE.

SOME SAY I'VE GONE TO FAR, I THINK NOT FAR ENOUGH.

I KNOW PEOPLE THAT BELIEVE THAT A SPANKING IS WHERE YOU HAVE TO TAKE IT SOMETIMES.

I DON'T THINK THAT TEACHES THEM ANYTHING CAUSE THE BEHAVIOR CONTINUES, AND NOW ALL YOU HAVE DONE IS SHOW HIM / HER HOW TO PASS THAT DOWN TO THEIR KIDS. 

ITS HARD BEING A PARENT THESE DAYS, THESE ARE THE DAYS OF NEW, WHERE THE DAYS OF OLD ARE LONG GONE.

WHAT ARE YOUR THOUGHTS ON SPANKINGS?

SHOULD WE AS PARENTS SPANK OUR CHILDREN WHEN THEY DON'T LISTEN OR DO SOMETHING WRONG?

OR IS IT BETTER TO TRY NEW METHODS THAT DON'T WORK EITHER?

WHAT IS THE RIGHT ANSWER?